Monday, April 2, 2018

On Becoming the person you’re meant to be 

This weekend I had a moment where I looked at K on the ice and said "Shit. When did that happen!"  My sweet boy looks taller. He speaks more maturely. He loves more fiercely yet selectively. He skates faster and eats more. FFS the kid has abs!  He’s also been waking up lately because his limbs are sore. He’s grown an inch and a half over the last couple of months. His clothes don’t fit, his shoes are too small... but he’s growing into the person he was always meant to be.


But his body is literally aching in process!

Because growing can hurt.

As we spent this Easter with friends that feel like family, but decided to not see biological family I felt I needed this reminder too.  I need to remember this as I endure growth in other ways; that I am becoming more of the person I was always meant to be.

It may not feel like it through the pain of navigating a tense family drama or through the restlessness of setting boundaries or through pushing past your own limiting beliefs, but change is happening.

Growth is happening.

Sometimes that growth is going to ache. Sometimes it’s going to be uncomfortable. Sometimes it’s going to keep me awake a night and make the tears flow. Sometimes it’s going to make me feel like I just want my mommy. 

But whether we know it or not, my son and I are becoming stronger right now. 

Quietly...subtly...deeply.

And when all is said and done…something amazing is happening...

Through the pain we are becoming the people that we are meant to become. And there is beauty and grace in that.